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[17 Aug 2008|10:48pm] |
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So... I have know idea were this summer went. I was planing on doing so much... but then I did like nothing. Now school starts next week and I don't feel like I did anything. Maybe after the concert on tuesday I'll feel better. lol. I am really excited for that.
I'm not looking forward to school. It's supposed to be like a new beginning but I don't really want to meet new people. I like the people I have in my life. Oh well. I have to wake up early to practice driving to ub and then work! YAY AWESOME SUMMER!
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[16 Jul 2008|01:09am] |
so today I started to read the book Einstein and I'm excited about it. I get excited anytime it's explaining any of his theories and I just love that stuff so much! I wish i was taking physics next semister so much I'm like depressed. I'll just have to keep reading about it. =)
I actully touched my guitar today. It's been so long i had to dust it off. lol. I decided that I'm still bad at it so I played my bass again but then I started talking to my old friend who lived in maryland but is now living here again and I put my bass away.
I'm kinda thinking about it and I'm not as afraid of the future as I was like 2 weeks ago. After I drove to ub I felt this relief and independence that I've never felt before. Now I'm completely looking forward to the new experience. Meet new people and hopefully learn shit. I'm almost positive that I'm not going to go crazy next year. =) I guess I'll get a preview monday at my orientation. lol we'll see how that goes.
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[14 Jul 2008|01:36am] |
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So this bitch asked me to take her off my friends list and because she was so bitchy about it I'm not going to it's funny.
So how's life? good. I finally drove to ub. Dave of course helped me. Summer 08 is pretty good. Florida was sweet, totally got a tan. 8)
I think I'm going to start to use this again. not sure.
I guess we'll see.
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[21 Jan 2008|12:18pm] |
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So last night I had a dream that my dad had a secret room in the house that you could only get to by sliding into and Lyndsey found it. It was all pimped out with a nice tv and all that other shit and so we desided to chill in it. Then my dad noticed we were gone and came into his little room and found me Lyndsey dave and Renee in there... oddly watching football. He had this very dissapointed look on his face that someone was in he own little place.. his sancuary and yet he let us stay. Normally I would find this dream completly hilarious but it made me think... I think my dad represented me in the dream. Like everyone is all up in everything I do and I don't have any alone time or space.
I think that's why I've been such a bitch lately. I don't leave any time for myself and for my body just to chill and relax. I'm so happy for this week off. lol pretty much it.
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[02 Nov 2007|10:14pm] |
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Today was six months with my baaaby. =]
We cuddled and then when out for dinner but he went home early so I could get some sleep for my SAt's tomarrow.
Not really to worried whatever happens happens. Plus I thought you couldn't use a calc so the whole time I was studing I wasn't useing one and I was doing fine. =)
Studied a little vocab and I'm good. Justin is taking them tomarrow too and I"m driving him. I'm going to get like 3 energy drinks so I can stay awake. lol.
Then I have to work 4-11. yay fun. But I work with Lyndsey and Renee and I believe I'm closing with syd but I could be wrong. Should be fun.
Also Cody S got a job. I'm so pissed I hate that kid.
=(
Well I have to sharpen those pencils for tomarrow.
=O
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| You can't catch pregnacy stupid! |
[29 Oct 2007|05:59pm] |
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So, I got baby sick. =(
He's all thowing up and stuff like I was.
But anyway, jazz band starts today. I'm actually kinda excited because I wanna plaaaaay~ =)
but O dizzle's probally going to talk forever again. Lame.
SO SAT's this weekend. I'm going to get like a 2 on them.... hopefully not. I have to get all my letters of recomendations and stuff anf then actually apply places. But I'm staying close and at home because I have a band to take care of. lol.
Well my hands are cold and I've got to get going to jazz. =)
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| I'm going to make it, I'm going to be a STAR! |
[28 Oct 2007|09:27pm] |
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SO, I decided I'm going to start posting on here again because I'm faster at typing then writing and I wanna keep a journal.
=]
Ya, so I was reading my past entries and I founf out I'm sick... a lot. I'm hoping if I eat healthier I will feel better. It's so hard when you work at a pizza place and you work long shifts and you wanna eat something.this week I put in a whopping 22 hours which is actually a lot more then it seems because in between school, Dave, Lyndsey, the band I'm in and sleeping it's a lot.
Baby made me a pb&j for tomarrow and I'm excited to eat it because he makes them the best. ^o^
Jazz band starts tomarrow not sure how I feel I feel about that because i have so much more to deal with but I'll manage. =) plus I love jazz.
I took AP gov which was another stupid move on my part. lol. I haven't done ANYTHING for that class. =/ and I have to make my mommy pay for two exams I'm pretty sure Im going to fail. well i passed us so maybe I'll do good on this one too. I think I'm going to do that now. =)
Life is pretty much awesome. I think I'm going to try and write something for the band tonight. we'll see. =)
Live.Laugh.Love. Jessica. <3
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[08 May 2007|05:58pm] |
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People should stay out of other people's business.
Just because you have no life but observing other people doesn't make you have one.
I don't go around saying shit about you so why do you have to about someone else?
This is why I'm not going on the computer at all anymore. It seems to just ruin things.
You heard about my Grandpa passing away and you couldn't even leave me a little "I'm sorry" message?
What the fuck. I'd do it for you. And oyou fucking know that. Even though we aren't friends anymore I still fucking cared about you but now, whatever. Your a fucking bitch and my life is better without you bitching at me about everything I do and wishing you had new friends every second.
So whatever.
So this will be my last entry.
I'm sorry your a bitter bitch.
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[03 May 2007|08:06pm] |
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I hate people who don't know someone for more then a week and just because they are going out all of a sudden they "love" each other.
wtf?
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[02 May 2007|09:28pm] |
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Bad movie, great night.
<3
My fovorite part of the night was when I was steering and he had his arm around me and he was doing the breaks/gas.
But I HATE movies about driving fast! >_<
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[30 Apr 2007|09:32pm] |
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I tried to update earlier but livejournal decided to be a fag.
Also, I can't get onto myspace! >_<
I was going to bitch about stress and my upcoming AP exam and inner turmoil and how I totally fail my math test today. and I'm not gonig to pass the chem regents but now I don't even feel it.
I like dave sososososososo much!
^o^
We have fun together and he's so nice to cuddle~
<3
He makes me feel 37641386750874365092365481734658493756 times better
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| Can you even see me? |
[28 Apr 2007|11:42pm] |
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I feel so weak right now.
I've got so much shit going on and I don't have any time to heal. I'm hurting, so bad right now, I want to just curl up into a little ball. I needed to stay home last week for my mental health but I didn't because I'm too damn worried about my grades. Now I'm sure I put myself into a deeper depression and I don't even know what to do with myself.
I want some one to take the pain away, but I won't stop hurting even if I'm with my friends which usally solves everything. Now I don't even want to talk to anyone. I hope it passes because now I'm just a shadow of what I was.
I miss my grandpa and I can't believe he's gone and I'll never get to see him again. I have very little memories of him because once I got older I only saw him at holidays and birthdays. But when I was younger we used to spend so much time together but after my grandma walke out on him I rarely saw him. I didn't realize he still loved my grandma. He kept a love note from he when he was in the air force and we found it while cleaning out his apartment.
I don't know.
I should be looking foward to prom, but right now all I can think about is my AP exam, Chem, and review classes. Oh and work. I have to work from 1-7 tomarrow. -_-
I don't know how I'm going to make it to may 11.
</3
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[20 Apr 2007|03:03pm] |
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I'm pretty sure that this was the worst week of my life. I'm so mentally, physically and emotionaly drained. I cried more in the past week then I have the rest of my life.
Well. I haven't stated it yet. Maybe because I don't want it to be true but my grandpa passed away.
God I'm going to miss that man. He always showed up early for every holiday andhe's come in and give me his big grandpa hug and say "hey you sexy bitch! How are ya!" "Or oh Bertha, I see you haven't lost the butt." and his cute big ears would be poking out of the hat he always wore and has about 30285671392605494387 of them.... If I say any more I'm going to start balling again and I don't want to.
Also I was sapposed to go on the Boston trip with the band this weekend that we paid for but guess what. I couldn't go. But now my mom is going on her little outing with her friends just because it was planned after the funeral.
Ugh.
I just really need Lyndsey now and I know she'd be her with me if she could.
</3
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[18 Apr 2007|03:04pm] |
I was thinking about the quote "all is fair in love and war." and you know what I say. Nothing is fair in love or war. War in general isn't fair. someone always has an advatage and everybody suffers.
I don't really know were that came from.
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| I remeber back in 8th grade every day after school it was lil jon time. |
[11 Apr 2007|01:38pm] |
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I went on an adventure with my sister testerday.
Me and her are getting along better. ^o^
But as we know if we say were just going to McDonalds you know were not going to get there until like 3 hours later. xD
As were driving my sister put on this one CD that had Ying Yang Twins on it and I was like this reminds me of camping and she was like this remends me of Sarah and she was like she stole that CD so we went on a serch for Ying Yang Twin's Me and my bother. Found out that theres a My bother and Me. I think that's their second cd or somthing.
Not important but it was good times.
In other news.
Mall with dave today!~
=]
That will mean 3 days in a row we've hung out.
Yaaay.
♥
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| I NEED to stop reading harry potter fanfiction before I go to sleep... |
[10 Apr 2007|12:05pm] |
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So last night's dreams started off normal but then turned utterly insane. I had a dream that I was working and for some reason I was employee of the month even though we don't have that and you get a $50 gift certificate for my own place of employment... gross. anyway. So I desided that I'd be nice and treat my Family to dinner but then my WHOLE family showed up and I went WAY over 50 and then everybody just left after they ate. So then I had to go back to work and they didn't really care about the bill and I was working with Dave matt and kim. o.O
Right in the middle of making a pizza I got this vision, like raven, that Voldie was in the mall. He told me to meet him in the mall, it's going down. And I was all I have to go and stuff. So for some reason me Matt and Dave went to the mall and walked around until we found voldie. he was in the Food court harrassing the japanese boy outside of the Japanese resturent and then Me matt and dave attacked Voldie and after like a really long battle in the food court Harry Potter came out of nowere and stabbed him but the some how due to there connectiong or some wierd shit Harry died too.
Then I started crying and oddly on Matt and then Dave was all like " why is she crying" and Matt's like I'unno. death?
so yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
No more late night fanfiction for me.
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[09 Apr 2007|03:56pm] |
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Hmmm.
I want Lyndsey to get home.
I want my easter basket from mom~
xD
haha.
My last enrty is almost the same as last's.
Going to Bingo and hopefully with Dave. I don't know what's actually going to happen but I'm sapposed to be going driving with my dad and to the bank and since I'm driving i'm going to go to McDonalds and get some yumm yumms off the dolar menu.
=]
I think I'm going to go over to Lyns tonight and make sure that memory card isn't in her room because I really don't like not knowing were it is.
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<< S'all for now.
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[25 Mar 2007|08:53pm] |
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I kinda have a tummy ache...
I ate too much at work today.
Dx
But work was pretty good today. 'Cept dave got bitched for no reason.
He's taking us to Bingo tomarrow~ <3
I'm excited. ^o^
Ugh.
I don't really feel like typing anymore.
I have to read my US book. yay.
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